what do you want to do...

before you die? I just watched the buried life on mtv. it is a show about 4 guys who have a list of 100 things that they want to do before they die. the spin on it is that every time they complete something on their list they do something for a stranger. this week their challenge was to sneak into a party at the playboy mansion. during the show they met a man who was a teacher at a charter school. he said that he wanted to help out his school by starting with getting a new computer that actually works. so the guys went out onto the streets of california and put on a show to raise money for the computer. anyways, its a really great show. and it got me thinking. what do i want to do before i die?? every time i think of things it has to do with work, and thats not right!! but i have no idea what i want to do outside of that. i know i want to help others. i know i have soooo many interest and things that i want to learn. i know i would LOVE to learn what i call decorative house improvements. i want to learn how to tile, grout, paint, hang light fixtures. all those fun things!! i want to be able to volunteer. i want to make a difference in the world. but what that means to me, i have no idea!! i think todays challenge will be to figure out what i want to do before i die...

PT job!?!

I'm trying to decide if I should get a part time job. it would have to be extremely part time. Ideally it would be something that I could do at home. I have been thinking of setting up something online to try and sell my baked creations. I mean it's something that I love to do, people seem to enjoy my baking and if I could make some money at it, that would be ideal. Maybe I should look into this....

Longest week of my life....

Wow. Last week was CrAzY!!! Monday I went to work and did my usual thing. I was so proud of myself because of how much I got done in such a short amount of time that I decided to "reward" myself and go home early!! It was great. I was able to relax and hang out with tank (my beloved bulldog). Then at 8:15pm I got a call and all the relaxing ended for the week. One of my shift supervisors called and said (seriously what I am about to say is what they really said) "Meg I think I have bad news" my first thought was, crap the safe is short. Wrong!! So anyways I say "what" and she says "I think there might be a dead body in the bathroom." Yes I said dead body. So I get up and get to the store in 10 minutes. Sure enough, a customer did pass away. So I was at my store on Monday until midnight. Then I had to call my shift supervisors and let them know what happened. I was up until 2am doing that and then I had to be back to work at 4:30am Tuesday. Needless to say I didnt get much sleep. Then I was at my store from 4:30am to 4:30pm dealing with things. The police were treating our store as a crime scene so we were closed until 3pm on Tuesday. By the time I had gotten home and was able to fall asleep I had been up for over 36 hours. Then on Wednesday I had to deal with all the customer comments and questions. That took a lot of out me. That was really hard which was surprising!! Then as soon as that was done I had to switch rolls and finish planning my sisters baby shower!! That was a lot of work but all worth it. My mom and I spent all day on saturday making chocolate covered pretzels and running last minute errands. Saturday night I just crashed I could barely keep my eyes open. Then I woke up at 5am on Sunday to finish the madness. I had to run more errands and then start to get things ready before everyone came over at 1pm. All in all though it was a wonderful day and she recieved many wonderful gifts. Hopefully this week will be much quieter...
Below is a picture of the pretzels that we made.

I'm gonna find a way to make it

I'm gonna do me. I am to make a list of my goals for the year this week and I will post them. Once I achieve them I will cross them off. Goal #1: Leave my train wreck of a marriage. I was hoping to achieve this one by the end of the month but that doesnt look like it will happen. I know it will happen soon though that is for sure. Every day that passes I get a little more ballsy. I find myself listening to Leona Lewis "Happy" on repeat. The chorus is truly how I feel. It goes something like this:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of groud.
I gotta find my place, I gotta hear my sound.
Dont care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy.

I told myself that part of my new years resolution was going to be to try and find the good in almost everything. The good in leaving my marriage is that we will both be happier people. Maybe not in the beginning but in time when everything heals we will both be complete again. I need someone who gets me. I need someone who compliments me. I want to be able to live my life. I want to be able to do things without him and not feel guilty about it and vice versa. I want someone who loves me truly, madly, deeply. I want somone who falls in love with me over and over agian. I want someone who will romance me every now and then. is that to much to ask for?!

do you ever wonder...

I do. All the time. I think a lot of that comes from working at the bux. I see people coming in all day long and I cant help but wonder what they do. Who are they? Why aren't they at work? What do they do for a living? Do they work? Did they just get laid off? Do they really like sbux or do they drink it for the label? Then there are the people who come in and sit there all day and I cant help but think to myself why the hell are they here so long?! Do they seriously have nothing else to do that they can afford to sit here for 8 hours a day?! I am also amazed at the wide array of people that come in. From the homeless to the filthy rich and everyone in between. The funny thing is the more money they have the less they tip!! I can't stand when someone puts a penny in the tip jar. Really?!? A penny? How the hell am I supposed to split that up between 12 people. Keep your damn penny. And you dont want me to get started on being on your phone while ordering!! Oh lord! If you take only one thing away from entire blog let it be this...get off your damn phone while ordering!! You are the rudest person in the world to be on your cell phone and having a conversation while placing your order. And dont even expect me to know what you are talking about if you try to sign something to me. Put the phone down for 5 seconds to place your order and then go back to your conversation. Please dont expect me to try and talk to you or be nice to you while I am making your drink. You are rude enough to pretty much ignore me and without telling me directly you are saying that I am not important enough for you to stop your conversation for 5 seconds so to me you are not important enough to try and have a conversation with!! And dont you dare have the audacity to tell me your drink was made wrong, you were too damn busy on the phone to realize how you ordered it!! So please hang up the phone or put it down while ordering or checking out at a store. Sorry, that was my rant for the day!! There will be more to come. Tomorrow should be interesting...

My day off.....

So today was my day off. I went down to my parents place to start clearing out my old room and try to sell some of my stuff. I found 18 pairs of Gap jeans. No that isn't a typo I really found 18 pairs. Thats a lot of wasted money**a minimum of $1,000**!! geeze. So anyways I took tank to the groomers and he got so fresh and so clean clean :) I was able to talk to my cousin Andrew for about 45 minutes today which was wonderful. He is in Switzerland & I miss him like crazy!!! Then I went out for margaritas with Ashley tonight which was awesome. We had to cut the night short because the roads were turning into ice, lame!! This is why I hate Chicago. So what do I do?! I bought a plane ticket to Florida!! :) I really need to get my life in order and get my happy ass out to Florida for good. To me happiness is palm trees, sunshine & a pool!! And I would be soooo rich because I wouldnt be stuck inside 6 months out of the year so I wouldnt be shopping online which would save sooooo much money!! And I would be so thin because I would be outside all day every day *when it was sunny and warm of course*. I would probably have a really hard time working though the first year because I would want to be outside, always!! This is why I think I would be an amazing trophy wife/ stay at home mother!! just sayin....

Welcome!

Welcome!! This is the first time I am ever doing something like this. Crazy!! This blog is about nothing special, just my day to day adventured from work to friends to home life. Sometimes it will be good. Sometimes it will be bad. Sometimes it will be happy and other times sad. But at the end of it all it will be honest.

So a little about me. I go by M. I am unhappily married and trying to get out but I am too nice!! My best and worst quality...I care about others and their happiness waaaaay too much. I am 25, almost 26 *yikes*. I have an older sister, twin brother & younger brother. My parents have been married for 30 years!! I was born and raised in Chicago. Best city in the world. You have everything that you could ever want and more right at your door. However, Chicago and I have a love hate relationship. As much as I love Chicago and all it has to offer, I hate living here. My heart is in Florida and always has been. I work fulltime as a manager of a very popular coffee shop. Oh the stories I will tell on here. I feel that I am random at times. I probably have a champagne taste on a beer budget, although the champagne is a fairly cheap one. I cant live without my music. I love to dance but am probably terrible at it. I love trashy reality tv shows. I love purses, shoes, flip flops and wallets. I love love which gets me in trouble a lot. I long for romance. I hate my teeth but everyone says they are "me". lame. I would get fake boobs in a heartbeat. I have dreams of being a trophy wife one day while owning my own kick ass company. One day I will make a name for myself. I will leave my footprint on the world! Well that is all for now. Stay tuned, the adventures are about to begin!!