I'm gonna do me. I am to make a list of my goals for the year this week and I will post them. Once I achieve them I will cross them off. Goal #1: Leave my train wreck of a marriage. I was hoping to achieve this one by the end of the month but that doesnt look like it will happen. I know it will happen soon though that is for sure. Every day that passes I get a little more ballsy. I find myself listening to Leona Lewis "Happy" on repeat. The chorus is truly how I feel. It goes something like this:
So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of groud.
I gotta find my place, I gotta hear my sound.
Dont care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy.
I told myself that part of my new years resolution was going to be to try and find the good in almost everything. The good in leaving my marriage is that we will both be happier people. Maybe not in the beginning but in time when everything heals we will both be complete again. I need someone who gets me. I need someone who compliments me. I want to be able to live my life. I want to be able to do things without him and not feel guilty about it and vice versa. I want someone who loves me truly, madly, deeply. I want somone who falls in love with me over and over agian. I want someone who will romance me every now and then. is that to much to ask for?!
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